Feliz Cumpleanos Mom

Today is my dear mother's birthday. I know she will never read this because she does not operate fancy technology :) but I want to tell the world that it is her birthday and how much she means to me.

My mom is hard working, hyper, stubborn, giving, practical, and inventive. Her faults are endless and our hard times between her and I were..well, really rough but the truth is that I can recount those faults and those hard times and not feel a grain of resentment or anger because the support and love, however twisted it is at times, far outweighs the negative. My mother has never handed us anything on a silver platter yet I feel like the luckiest daughter in the world. I have never and will never feel alone and helpless because I know that regardless of what choices I make in life, she is there for me. I never have to feel like I do not belong to a family or a home because she is all that for me.

I get calls from her throughout the day and she takes off talking a mile a minute about something that has been on her mind and kept her up all night regarding my life. Sometimes my worries weigh heavier on her shoulders and on her heart than they do for me. She has always had options and a variety of solutions to our problems whether we want them or not and will go out of her way to help us.

My mom was never very nurturing or gentle or what you would call sweet but yet when I feel like I can just handle no more pain, emotional or physical, it is her that I long for. She was never one to hug us for the sake of just hugging or tell us that she loved us but I have NEVER ever doubted if she did or not. She lives her life for her children and has done a damn good job raising 3 knuckleheads. I used to think my family was soooo dysfunctional (whose isn't, really?) but now as I have gotten older and met so many other families, I have realized we are pretty darn cool. My brother and sister are my best friends. I love spending time with my entire family and we always have so much fun even when we are annoyed and start being whiny, grumpy babies. None of us are psycho nutcases or crackheads and we are all pretty cute to boot. I think she did a fine job!

I can close my eyes at this very moment and remember exactly what my mom smells like, how her voice sounds, how her arms feel around me. I know I will always remember.

Mom, se que nunca fuimos la clase de familia que se moria por decir 'Te Quiero' a cada instante, pero nunca por un minuto dude si me querias o no. Te quiero mucho. El que Diosito te haiga escogida a ti para ser mi mama, fue la bendicion mas grande que me pudo dar. No te cambiaria por nadie en el mundo. Feliz Cumpleanos.