For Alex, Nyah, & William

I knew I had something to say about this but honestly my emotions are so many that I cant wrap my mind around all of them enough to write about it so please forgive me if I ramble….
About two weeks ago, a dear friend of mine had to rush up to Kansas because she got news that her dear niece and two nephews had died in a house fire. She loved those children tremendously and worried about them constantly. These three children had been bounced around and divided time after time because both their mother and father were overseas as active duty military. And without going into too much detail that I will probably get very, very wrong, let’s just say that their lives seemed to be filled with lies, drama, and ….well, I’ll go ahead and just say it, rejection. The biggest blessing in these children’s’ lives was the grandparents and aunts that cared for them and helped raise them. And these poor grandparents and aunts quite often also had to deal with the wrath and manipulation of their mother.
I told you I would ramble and be all over the place.
So why do I feel the strong need to right about the loss of these three beautiful babies? Because the fire allegedly began around 11 pm on a Saturday night while their mother “was nearby studying”. Yes, you heard me right! Are you as outraged as I am? Because I am wondering what adult in their right mind is not as outraged and asking the question “WHY WERE THEY ALONE?”. Let me tell you that the investigators have already ruled the fire accidental caused by flammable materials that were sitting too close to the furnace. Unfortunate and could happen to anyone. I often think twice before leaving all my laundry laying out too close to the water heater myself. So okay, it was an accident. Mom maybe couldn’t have prevented it and leaving those things could have been an honest mistake. But where was she? Why is no one asking who in their right mind would leave a 7, 5, and 3 year old all alone? What if it hadn’t been a fire? What if they had gotten out of bed and played with a knife or scissors or dropped the TV on their head?
This woman from what I have been told has a long history of lies, manipulation, and suspect behavior. Not only is it outrageous that unstable and/or selfish people can have children, but someone like that is in my military protecting my freedom. She couldn’t even protect her own children. Frankly it makes me angry because these children deserve answers. The rest of the family deserves answers. They have suffered for years worrying about these children and now they are all guilt-ridden and feel cheated that they were taken away.
I am no one to judge but I sure can speculate and question. I believe in God and although I do not understand why such sad things happen when there is a God I do believe they are now in a place where they will always be together. They will never be split up across different time zones while their mother is across the globe. They are now together being loved and accepted and at peace.


To Alex, Nyah, and William,

I never had the honor to meet you in person but I have heard about you since I first met your Titi Caryn a few years ago. I want you to know that she loved you very much and was always worried about you. She saw who you really were; fun, happy, and very good children. She thought you were all so sweet and smart and funny. I don’t know why you had to leave us so soon but I really, really hope you are happy and feel safe in God’s arms now. Even if sometimes you felt very sad and lonely when you had to say good bye to your mommy, daddy, or to each other when you had to live in separate places, remember that you were never ever alone because not only was God always right there next to you but your grandparents, your Tia Yesenia, your Titi Caryn, and your daddy were always thinking about you.
I hope now that you are three together forever that you can watch over my babies and be guardian angels for them. Always protect them and help me protect them as well.

Lots of love,
Titi Caryn’s friend