my matty

I have stopped myself from writing this so many times because it seems way too personal, way too intimate but I am so filled with emotion that i could just burst. I am so madly in love with my husband. I close my eyes and i feel like if my feet come off the ground. You know that cheesy, dreamy feeling in chic flicks, that movie kiss moment where you sigh so deeply and ooh and aaah. well, that's how I feel.

He makes me smile. He makes me feel loved and special. I am so lucky that I can stop in the middle of my day and feel so good to know that I belong somewhere. I belong with him. He healed my wounds and kept me safe. He helped me believe in love and family again. He made me believe in myself again.

My husband has a huge kind heart. He is forgiving and giving and loyal. I remember when my mom first met him she asked me in a very concerned voice, "aren't you afraid of him?" (because of his big voice and big stature). LOL No, no I am not and that is absolutely wonderful considering size doesnt matter when someone really wants to be intimidating. Because I know in him I will find my soft place to fall. I have never had to doubt if he was ever in love with me or if he has ever doubted spending his life with me. I will never forget the look on his face as I walked down that aisle in that intense heat that August afternoon. We were surrounded by good friends and family and precious Julianne. We started our new life as a family; him and I, J, and big T in my tummy.

And now that big T is here, I have fallen in love with my husband all over again because he is so in love with his son. The way he tends to him and just looks at him. T is a very, very lucky boy.


We are all very, very lucky. :)